SIP tmr, man I wonder how it will be. Met up with Yanjing to do some pace work.

need sleep. night.

Today was not a very god day, considering that I was suffering from giddy spells and very bad headaches.

Managed to get a wallet and bag today. Had lunch at Billy Bombers, courtesy of mummy. The set lunch of cream of mushroom soup, surf and turf (fish and steak), coffee milkshake and a scoop of chocolate ice cream was surely satisfying. =)

I figured out that more or less, some people will not be happy with my previous post. Well, I will just leave it as such. I will not disagree with any of you because you do not know what I felt, and I do not intend to elaborate on it either.

Been thinking alot, like how so many people think they know me inside out, and can read my body language. Seriously, when they tell me what they think, I can only listen. I do not want to tell them they are wrong. Somehow, it seems like I am perceived as someone who is cold. I really wished I was.

On a lighter note, Muzika Ekstravaganza was good. Wished I knew malay though.

The past few days have been great. Having been able to meet up with so many of my friends from JI, it sure has been pretty fruitful.

Met up with Janice and Dylan respectively for three days in a row! That sure is a record that will be pretty tough to beat! But of course I met up with Elaine, Nicholas and Raymond. It is good to see how everyone has moved on and progressed so much in life.

On Tuesday, Janice, Elaine and I more or less settled on our sister ring. Got it from Moshi Moshi. Two rings that are together, pretty nice design. *admiring ring on finger*

Went for a chalet today, strangely enough, I did not feel like I belonged. In no more than an hour I left. As I walked with a friend, it was then I realised, that it was the first time I seeked help and comfort from my sisters. But thank god for my sisters and the VS guys. They always seem to be there for one another, through everything. No matter how ridiculous the situation maybe, or how late it is, one never seems to hesitate to be there and stick by one another. Boy am I glad I have got them.

Had dinner at Simpang Bedok earlier and Dylan joined us, now after a nice refreshing shower, I am typing furiously in Janice's room. Elaine is busy mugging, and I am looking forward to dinners and stay-overs when her papers are done. =)

Think I should end here. Brief but it will serve as a trigger for me, where all the memories of the past few days will rush back to me. (Gosh, I just realised how late it is!)

Went to Movies by the Bay on friday and saturday. Had pretty good fun, eating and drinking with Mummy. Had yummy pizza, delifrance sandwiches, chips and sushi over the two nights. So all in all, I watched Honey, Havana Nights, You Got Served and Shall We Dance! What a great movie fest it has been!

Spent the whole of monday with my fellow main comm members doing what is perhaps the last time or so, sitting together and doing so much work as part of the interest group. Rather memorable, I should say.

Met up with Dylan today, who could not recognise me after I had my haircut. Met up with Elaine and Janice as well. Did a bit of shopping for our sister rings and I thik we have found the one!!! =) Had a really good time with all of them. I really miss all my friends from JI, and boy, I want to meet them as soon as they are free!!!

My last few days of 'freedom', and I still have alot to do. Too much to do, too little time. Someone please, give me whatever free time you have, to make my days that much longer....

Hmm, time to back track and see what on earth I have been busy with the entire week!!!

9, 10 April: Went to Sijori Hotel Resort with my family. Had a great time walking around and seeing Sentosa with its newer look. Walked alot! Had great meals at the Steword Riverboat, Sakae Sushi and Delifrance.

11 April: Went to Downtown East courtesy of Jovi's invitation to crash her chalet! ad fun eating and watching television, drinking and talking tons of rubbish with them at night! Breakfast the next morning was great too!

12 April: Did a express pedicure and manicure with Mummy and Penguin. Now my nails are in a pretty dark red. I really do love the colour! PACEsetters chalet at Aloha Loyang. Met up with some people that I have not met up in a while. Had a good time chatting with most of them. Managed to get some sleep in preparation for....

13 April: HTM D&D!!! Ok, so I did not have anything fancy to wear, I just got stuff from my closet (sans the tube top from MNG). But at the end of the day, the event was pretty good. Good job to the sub-com for the hard work that they have put in!!! Went to chill at the Coffee Club at Somerset, and left for home at around 3+ in the morning. =)

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On a sadder note, another shining star has left us all. It is strange, that it is through these times that the ties the living have become stronger. Naturally we seek the support and comfort from one another to get through everything but, is not too late to always wait for something sad to happen to pull us closer?

One more week to working part-time at Sentosa, trying to conserve my energy now. I wonder if people will understnd at all.

What a long day it has been. Went for breakfast with my parents before heading to school to prepare for D&D. Did not really do much, not many things that I could help out with. Managed to finish the first of my Adrian Mole books though, pretty interesting a read it has been.

Met up with Janice to go window shopping for stuff and then met up with Mummy for dinner at Tampines Mall. Had dinner at Ajisen and there appeared this guy called Jonathon who used to work at Fuzion, Heeren. He recognised me and like he did at Fuzion, he gave me a 10% discount. Hmmm.. looks like I can consider dining there more often.

Missed American Idol and The Amazing Race. Well well, in exchange for that, I was on the train and read more of the second book in the Adrian Mole series.

Very tired and wondering why has everything decide to happen all at once. This surely cannot be one of the lowest points in the year right? I just want to go on a little break somewhere cheery, relaxing and where I am away from everything and everyone. =)

The talk during dinner was somewhat good, it made me think and realised a little more than I have thought. Other then the occasional freaked out moments when I was being 'watched' every now and then, I had a good time laughing. It made me forget all the things that I have to turn my attention to momentarily.

Need to sleep soon, there is school for me tomorrow. And oh, I am at least halfway through the seond book, I wonder when will I finish the last Adrian Mole book in my possession. =)

Went out with Eugene today, and boy did I walk alot! All in all, we both walked from Buis MRT Station to Sim Lim (he wanted to send his PS2 for repairs), to Suntec (but we stopped for lunch somewhere), then to Heeren to check out stuff, and then all the way to Forum Shopping Mall. Had some cake and drinks at Secret Recipies, and then walked a bit before heading to Borders and then Kinokuniya. Bought three books in the Adrian Mole series, an looking oward to havin my head buried in them in the next few weeks.

Had a good chat with Eugene, and realised that perhaps I really do not know what I want in life, and that I really need to get away from it all. We touched on quite a bit, and boy am I glad I had him there to talk to.

Walking around today, I bumped into numeous people, and Eugene was being irritating! He kept count of the number of people I met and was making fun of me and someone else! Hmph!

There are way too many shocks fo me of late, the past few days have been a blur to me. Today, my mother got into a car accident. Thank goodness she is alright, the car is a little banged up though.

I went trouh quite a bit of old stuff and I came upon Shaminta's famous handmade envelopes and letters in my stash of personal stuff. I realised how much I missed her and never got about contacting her. So it is good to know that she is doing fine, and I hope that her exams will all be ok.

Poyew surprised me with a call. And though it ended with a smile plastered on my face, I am now so worried about that silly boy and his swollen hand all thanks to the hornet his buddy passed to him. Funny how such things happen to him, and he never fails to give me updates! I just miss him I suppose.

I just wonder, how much longer can this go on, and how much longer can I go on like this?

Back to The Secret Diary of Adrian Mole. (now why did I not get this book sooner?)

It has been sometime since I last blogged and during this time, plenty of things happened, but I am just glad that it is more or less settled.

Many belated birthday wishes to Eugene, and thanks to him for the party that he had. =) Sorry that i did not get the chance to see Christine though, and I will meet up with you soon. It was a nice time to meet up with some of the people from JI, since it has been a few months since we all met up.

Spoke to Dylan last night, and well, I am glad to know that he will be ok. And he said something pretty silly without realising it (or did he?). *grins*

Though really tired and rather sleep deprived, I cannot get much sleep, slept at 3+ last night and I doubt I will be able to get much sleep tonight either. The past few days have been kind of a blur and it does not help that now I have some things to worry about.

How does one try and keep someone's will to live strong, if the situation seems so bleak? Especially when everything seems to be against you?

I think that I need to get out of the house, and be with people. Somehow today, I wanted to call someone to talk to, to turn to, but strangely, there was no one that I felt I could call. Everyone are so busy with their lives, in what position am I to make them stop, to tend to my problems? This thought has made me very afraid.

If I could choose, I wish that I liked someone like you. Then maybe, things will all seem better.
Bah. Wishful thinking.