In the comfort of Mich's home right now. After a nice warm shower and a yummy meal, I will soon need to get ready for work for tomorrow.

Work today was ok. The set-up was fun to a certain extent. It was great working with people I knew and all that, but at the same time the pace of work was not constant and there were many pockets of time in which I had to try and 'entertain' myself.

Hopefully the next few days will be better. A little more work means a little less time to be bored, which will then mean that I will not be feeling crazy and wonky! Heh.

Got Mich to get a pint of yummy B&J's ice cream when she went out for a while. Strawberry cheesecake. Yum. What a sinful indulgence.

Anyway back to telly and away from the computer!!! But first, to send out some emails of lurve! Hee.

Burn The Floor was great! I loved the dances, the music, the costumes, the set up, the concept, the energy was superb and goodness, how gracefully the dancers moved!

It was nice, though I felt that the seating arrangement could have been better. Saw Eddie and Luther there, but did not say hi. Considering the fact that they were there with TWO WHOLE ROWS of salsa/dance fanatics, I found that rather intimidating!

My one week of work starts tomorrow. Will be staying over at Mich's place as it is nearer ork and also there willbe someone to wake me up proper! (hey, at least i am admitting the truth!)

But it is sad that my stayover is due to work. Heh. I doubt that we will have much time or energy to boogie the night away (kidding)!

Well it is now time for me my pretty little darlings, to go find my stuff, pack up for the week, and try and read up on my materials for work~!

Had lunch with a friend today. A short but meaningful meeting, where I felt my heart at ease afterwhich.

But strangely, I did not want to say goodbye.

And thank you Snuffy, for calling. That made me laugh. Your'e the bestest ever! *hugs*

Was not feeling too happy yesterday, and so I decided to do something today. Me will go buy yummy goodies for a friend and send it to him!

I have not seen him in years (some may know who i am talking about), and I don't know when I will next see him, so I think this will be most apt! I mean guys will never give up snacks right?

So I headed down to Candy Empire and got a range of goodies:

- bag of chips
- bag of jellybeans
- family block of chocolate noir
- kit kat praline
- bag of preztels
- cereal bar
- tray of fruit gummies
- large bar of willy wonka chocolate
- box of kinder hippos
- willy wonka chocolate nerds
- flake noir

I think that was it. Put into a box with lots of pretty tiny green loose foam and got it sent to a corner in Singapore! Sure hope he likes it.

With that done, I feel happier. =)

Watched Superband and yes! Mi Lu Bing got in! Woohoo!!! Qi Nobe got in as well. That's good too. Like Juz B as well. And oh, Grey's Anatomy today was just sad. Really. Heart wrenching.

I found him!!!

Goodness, i miss him so much. But hearing his voice, a wave of calmness and excitement overwhelms me.

I found him, I am so relieved i have found him.

Dear Lord, thank you for bringing him back into my life. Please don't let him out of my life again. Please.

Back from the chalet, back from the short one day (ok half day) stint working with Michelle.

I am tired. The chalets were both fun. Really. Sleeping late, laughing our heads off when there was hardly any liqour involved. Heh.

Have you ever felt like this? I am sure there are numbers in your phone that you may not have contacted in very long, years maybe. But you keep the number there, as it kind of reminds you that your friend is indeed on the other end. Then one day, you decide to call and then you realise that it is your friend no more. With that as your only mean of contacting your friend, and no one else you know that can help. what does one do next?

Well, I kind of had this idea I saw a certain individual on the google box one fine day quite some times back. But I had no means of confirming if it was him. Every now and then, I have always drop him a text message once every few months, but never receiving a reply.

Anyway at the chalet I caught a glimspe of him on the google box again. And this time, I was very confident it was him. How did I feel? Mixed feelings I guess. Plenty of things came back to mind. But yet I was happy. For the last 3-4 years at least, I never heard from him anymore. So for once, instead of smsing, I decided to call... As I punched the numbers nervously, I realised I would not know what to say. The call got through, and I cut the line off the moment it started to ring. God knows why I did that. It was as if I knew he would not be on the other end of the phone call...

I thought so much about this, and him during the chalet. I knew I had to call one day. So right befpre reaching work today, I decided to do it. This felt as excruciating as going for an interview/ or taking an exam/ or going on stage. Then someone answered the call. A girl's voice came throught the receiver, and it took me a while to realise that I had the 'wrong number'.

In that moment, I realised I had 'lost' a friend, a special someone to me. I felt lost, wondering how he is doing after all these years. Perhaps it was my fault for not keeping in touch, but if he had changed his number, why did he not inform me?

I need to find him, no matter how long it takes. I just need to. Why? I do not know how to say this really. But if you know what I mean, I am sure you will understand.

The search continues, and no matter how long it takes, I just hope he will remember me. *fingers crossed*

Went to the island last night with a friend. Had yummy pasta at Trapizza followed by a nice walk down to Southern Most Point.

My friend asked me what it is that I love so much about the island, that I can never seem to get enough of it. Could not really put a finger to it actually. What really is it about the island that keeps me coming back for more?

Will be at a chalet from today all the way till wednesday. Think it will be fun running from one chalet to another, all within the same grounds.

Life seems a little empty now, funny since the pace of life is picking up a little now, with a little more to do. Why?

In life, we all need to make choices. And we must learn to live with the choices we make.

I certainly am not sure what the future holds for me, but my procrasinating and wishful thinking has more or less allowed me to waste a few more months (though I am still hoping for a miracle).

I just wish that I could be a better person.

My knight just called!!!

He managed to get me distracted from my craving or pancakes for a while, and up the smiley-dosage in my life a little bit more. =)

poor darling is busy with exam preparation but I know that he will do well. Cannot wait for his exams to be over so I can see him and go back to island with him!!! We will go crazy together I tell you!!! *grinz*

It never really seems to be a dull moment with him. And boy, I am still smiling from our conversation!

Thank you for making me smile knight, and yes, the promise when you are 35 and I am 31. Heh.

The last few days, I feel so loved, more than ever.

Thank you Lord, for bringing such warmth and love into my life.

Earlier in the afternoon I was chatting with Cranberry and I somehow started to surf the net for prety pictures of berries. (What else?)

Then I came across a picture of a gorgeous stack of pancakes with strawberries and cream, and used it as my display picture. That got us craving for pancakes.

Hours later, I am getting really hungry, with gastric setting in. I did eat my dinner as I have promised. But I am getting really hungry. I do not want anything in the household as I want something warm and soothing to the tummy.

Yes, I am still craving pancakes. Warm, fluffy pancakes, with chuunks of rich, creamy butter, and thickm golden, glistening maple syrup.

I NEED MY PANCAKES.. NOW!!!

It is incredible how we can talk as though we have been friends for like, forever, without the 8 years hiatus.

It feels very childlike with all the excitement and non-stop chattering, but yet comforting like a very well established relationship 2 long-time friends would have.

I like this friendship, it makes me happy. =)

And for this, I love friendster!

Lunch with mummy and godma was good. Though it was Crystal Jade, there was way too much food to be finished. I ended up leaving the establishment stuffed to the brim with food as the mummies had problems finishing food and did not want to waste.

Meeting godm was good, I need to meet up with her more often.

Now I need to find the opportunity to meet my god-nieces and nephews.

Last night, I got a message from a person fron Friendster. The person asked me if I was the Karin he knew, that was from AISS, and was a part of the choir.

I went to see his profile and found him familiar. And upon seeing the school he was from and his pictures, a name popped up in my head. But I had problems trying to send him a message back, and so I left it as such. I remembered this guy as one with fantastic neat handwriting, and if I am not mistaken, we were made fun of during SYF rehearsals. His school's choir was right behind mine, and we all were having a good time making friends.

Today I checked my account without thinking much, and this poor fellow sent me another message saying that he might have gotten the wrong person and he apologised. So after a few more messages set back and forth, I added him on MSN.

Is it not cute/interesting/amazing? That is this 8 years, he has been trying to find me? That every year he takes out the cards he had received before and reads through them, reading one that I wrote to him? And now, the two of us are talking again after 8 long years?

This feels so much like a movie, and I was so excited conversing with him via MSN.

KENNY NG CHEE RUI!!! We will meet up soon ok?

Had lunch with Mich today, and got some stuff from her that I will need to go through.

Went down to the island today, and it rained again. Went about Imbiah and met Eng Kee and Uncle Din (aka Uncle Baha). Waited for Cranberry at Cool Deck and chatted with Max in the midst of the rain.

Had a berrylicious dinner at Trapizza, where I devoured their good and yummy pizzas. Cranberry was filling me in on all the little juicy gossips and happenings at the D&D that took place last night. Goodness, how I wish that I could have been there!

We took the beach tram and went to 7-11 in front of Club Islander. We indulged in gorgeous B&J's cookie dough, and chatted the night away.

It was so much fun! I must go back to the island really soon and look up the rest of my dear friends!