Sometimes even being pushed into a corner you feel defeated and find no way to muster up any strength to fight.

I often wonder how thing would be like with a ton of 'what ifs'.

The mind needs to slow down and focus on the present more than struggle to grasp the strings connecting to all my thoughts and worries.

I feel smothered in something. What it is I have no idea but then again, everything seems a blur.

The year is flying by. It's as though I am wasting time doing something I am not even sure of.

My confidence is slowly flying out the window.

The optimism I had coming into the year has long turned to ashes.

Life isn't bleak, but at the same time, I am having difficulty finding that ray of sunshine to motivate myself.

I am tired.

Very distracted from school work at the moment, despite the deadlines looming very near. Was blog surfing when I came across some really good news. To this friend of mine, I am so so happy for you fairygodma, sorry I won't be there but hey, you know that I would LOVE to be there no? Time will fly and before you know it you would have to send me pictures of the joyous occasion ok? *BIG hug*

This led me to being in a really happy mood for the last 30 minutes and I know how some of you say I never post pictures? Well here is one, of me and the boy. The first picture of us posted here? I think so.

Everyone meet the boy, Tom!

I know many of you will not have a chance to meet him anytime soon, but rest assure that he does treat me well and is really nice to me. If you have anything to say to him or ask, just drop comments on the blog and he will get to it ok?

Waffles anyone?

Starting to get cold over here. While I am excited so that I get to wear my nice winter wear I got, a wave of sadness overwhelms me. Winter approaching means the semester ending. This means that it won't be too long till I will face what could possibly be my final semester in school forever.

The future awaits, and for the moment, I am not that keen on stepping on that new adventure.

Time flies when one gets carried away with the daily routine of school and love. Somehow the semester seems to be flying by much faster than I expected it to.

The struggle with school continues as the classes I take get more technical and more time pressing since that is how journalists work. I find myself figuring the easiest things out with great difficulty while many others just sail through them. Their ideas and work methods and experience sometimes just scares me a little to be honest.

But while all this is happening, I have someone who treats me right and is a life saver. The boy took me to the Blues Festival at Byron Bay during the Easter break, and the rest in the Gold Coast was much appreciated. On this special day, I just want to say thank you love. Nine months have past and you have really been my pillar of strength in many occasions, and I really want to thank you for everything.

Social life wise, it is good to have one or two familiar faces around. Their laughter and constant chatter has been god sent. And the friends around them that I have started to cherish as well, they put a smile on my face, especially someone whom I somehow met last year at a bus stop. =)

And to Steph! I know it is belated but CONGRATULATIONS ON OFFICIALLY GRADUATING! I don't know if you are still in Perth but I hope that you had good time back there with Tun and where your 'second home' is/was.

Oh, does anybody want to watch Phantom with me? I watched it already but I got the understudy as my Phantom and honestly, it is THAT GOOD that I want to watch it again! SO anyone here who wants to watch it please let me know!

And strangely enough, I was pretty annoyed/upset/agitated the last few days but I have come to terms with some things in life. People just need to accept that things don't always go there way and move on. If they like to live in their world where they thing themselves as saints and I'm the bitch, I'm all for it.

With my friends and family with me, with everything else going for me at the moment, who needs to care about scum?

xoxo
me

ps: I know you miss me.